Patience… Not My Virtue

“Speed. I am Speed”– Lightning McQueen

I like to drive my car fast…. And get to my destination faster. Sometimes, I’m guilty of wanting to go a faster pace when it comes to life. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I rashly make decisions… I just sometimes (most times) try to skip the process and get to the end result.

“…We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.” – Romans 5:3-4 NIV

Evolution happens in the wilderness season. That season of in-between when you can’t see yet what’s on the horizon but must keep the faith and believe its coming. The season where life might be more quiet and God has you in isolation so you can spend more time with Him. This is the place where He can wash away tears, increase faith, and build confidence so that we can handle all the things that we pray for.

img_9175-1Often, we want the blessing and not the responsibility that comes with it. The benefits without the hard work, risk, and time it takes to have something great. To be whole and happy. We lack the motivation and perseverance to prepare mentally, emotionally, and spiritually to give, do, and be our best. But that’s what He requires! And often we miss the mark because we rush through to get to the other side. We make bad decisions because we didn’t wait to hear whether He approved or not. We fly through the red lights of relationships and end up crashing at the dead end.

Trust.

I believe God is trying to cultivate this area of my life because I’ll need it in my next season. Whether it’s my business, a new relationship, a promotion, etc, it’s going to require a new level of discipline in me. And the thing about patience is it requires trust.

There are many things in life we want, desire, and pray for. We get excited about the prospect of the “thing” but not the process. And doing things God’s way requires God.  It requires a lot of waiting, times where He only gives a little bit of information, or even moments of silence…. But we must trust enough to wait for Him to move so we know what to do. And my Heavenly Father knows how much I struggle with control.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. Philippians 4:6

Due to pain hurts, regrets, failures, and disappointments I attempt to control everything. How things are done, when they are done.  I need to know why things are happening, the entire breakdown of a situation, etc. I subconsciously believe that if I am in control, I can minimize the damage or negative effects that may happen to me. But there is no trust in that. And ultimately, I’m telling God there are areas I can’t trust Him.

Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Romans 12:12

Though it is slow (ironically), I am learning to be patient. I am learning to take my hands off the wheel and let God drive. To take a look around and admire the beauty of this current season. To pause and wait for the red lights and the green. And to make sure I stop for the correct passengers and let people off at their appointed destination.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior 

Oceans (Hillsong)

In this season in your life, ask yourself:

Where do I need to slow down?

What is the purpose of this season for me?

Who is truly driving my life?

And how can I strive to do better?

 

Make the most of this season because in due time…. they change.

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