Diary of a Single Woman-

As a Christian woman pursuing purity, the journey has been good for the most part.

But.

There are moments when I get tired. When I look at others not being as obedient in this area and ask God why. It’s winter, who doesn’t want someone to watch movies with and have great conversation right? Ultimately, it all comes down to a war between comfortability and the call (purpose).

Sometimes when we are in the wilderness, it’s hard to see the Promise Land on the horizon. When the landscape doesn’t change, we begin shifting our focus from the destination to the people and the environment around us. The excitement of the promise begins to fade and your faith is tested.. your willingness to be obedient is tested…

We all have a choice during the journey to continue to be obedient to God or indulge in temporary things. Often, the inability to see the consciences that others will face offers a lie that everything will be all good for us if we choose to backslide. But what if that one night, that one activity, that one decision delays your blessing? One month? One year? THREE years?!?! We never know the cost upfront when we choose a life of disobedience… But we will always pay!

Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.

Galatians 6:7-8 ESV

As much as I would like to give up or give in… Stick a toe out of line; my desire for God’s best is stronger. And He’s placed great friends in my circle to keep me focused. That remind me I can not be like the world… That I am set apart.

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Romans 12:2 KJV

I would be so upset if I chose to give up purity and the blessing that God has for me was just a month away! I would be upset with myself if I had to go through another season of recovery due to my intentional rebellion. And I would have no one to blame but myself.

This journey is not easy, but I wholeheartedly believe it will be worth it. I believe that my sacrifice will usher in a bloodline shift for my family. It will give my son a godly standard in which to model himself after. And I will experience the fullness of what great gifts God has for us when we enter into a godly marriage. When we allow Him to orchestrate the process.

And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.

Galatians 6:9 ESV

Don’t give up! There are wonderful blessings on your horizon.

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